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Definitely need a mood stabilizer but don't know if I can stand the side effects.
Now, however, I am wondering what to do as an alternative? I don't want to be a hunched over crippled old lady---but I don't want to be in pain either.
Severe hot flashes, night sweats, mental instability, depression, anxiety, mood swings, joint pain (mostly in my shoulders), migraines,
tingling in upper extremities, fatigue, decrease in depressive symptoms (after 6 weeks of Rx. therapy). Second coarse of relapse for me, did not wean off the first time, as I was feeling so back to normal. Relapse occured after 6 months of being off meds. Worse side effect after 'regaining life' is the loss of libido, severe, zip, none. Which is kind of a bummer.
I was told by my doctor that THIS was the medication for me, a wonder drug for my resistant depression.
I used to have insomnia with the depression but it's gone know.
I've never had a probem FALLING asleep, only STAYING asleep longer than 3 hours.
My heart was racing and fluttering.